Pressure to forgive

I feel this pressure to forgive
Like resentment is a sin
Like I’m wrong for what I’m feelin

Don’t be stealin
my emotions
Mama’s morals
murdered my intuiton.
Thank god it was a temporary condition
Thank god for my resurrection.

What’s right by the light of christ?
Give your desires as a sacrifice.
Draw a line down your center
and make a slice
Do away with the parts
that don’t make you feel nice

what a good girl.
what a good boy.
what a good girl.
what a good boy.
what a good girl.
what a good boy.

huuhhmmmm…
hmmm
now I don’t know where to go.
hmmm
they told me not to let the ugly show.
hmmm
branded my heart with the cross’s glow.
”You don’t know what’s right for you, give god your ego.”

huheemm…
I just want to be whole again.
I just want to know my preferences.
I just want to feel my bitterness.
Don’t abuse me with your pressure to forgive
and then call yourself a good person.