Heart Room 

Creatures, light bodies, and skeletons
Coming up the mountain
The closest skeleton reaches for my hand
But there’s nothing to grab
I’m made of stories and sand
I’m not your savior
But I could be your friend 
Go ahead be dead 
But don’t weigh me down with the stories
you vomit out your head
A broken record
looping on victimhood and dread
I prefer you show me your strength
And your artistry instead 

I kindly request that you 
Come alive 
What makes you interesting?
What gets you inspired?
What makes you forget time?
And satiates the hungriest ghost’s desires? 

Come alive 
What makes you interesting?
What gets you inspired?
What makes you forget time?
And satiates the hungriest ghost’s desires?

I am no longer willing to open my heart room to everyone. 
Some people, I let them inside
and they nearly sucked my beauty dry
without batting an eye 
So I created distance
forgave them
and then let them back inside 
I was too naive to realize 
They hadn’t changed as much as I had 

The same characters playin the same games 
While I’m over here shiftin shapes 
Seeing what new games I can play 
I don’t care if you think I’m a little strange 
Cuz I’m no longer inside a cage with you 
There’s finally space to breathe in this heart room

I polish diamond people
whose sparkle is concealed by a layer of dust 
I don’t give much time to people who have rusted through
Because they didn’t stop to take care of what they needed to 
So it grew and grew and grew
And at that point 
There’s not much I can do 
It’s up to you 
Your happiness is not my responsibility 

If you wanna run with me 
Practice body intelligence and mobility
Agility 
Strengthen your emotional fragility 
I don’t give much time to drama 

But I’ll sit with you 
Cry with you 
laugh with you 
Draw a picture with you 
If there’s some stuck energy you’re looking to move

Are you ready to evolve?
or will you become
another character playin the same games? 
While I’m over here shiftin shapes 
Seeing what new games I can play 
I don’t care if you think I’m a little strange 
Cuz I’m not stuck inside a cage with you 
There’s so much space to breathe in this heart room 

I will remove myself from your life 
If you choose to worship a god of endless boredom and pain 
If you have not grasped the understanding
That your life is yours to change
If I choose to stick around
In the hopes that I can make you happy 
That’d make me insane 
To stay would mean I’d have to worship your god of endless suffering 
And I will cry at your feet no longer 
When it is my will to be happier and stronger

I care about your feelings
but you don’t 
And I can’t carry your weight
anymore 

I care about your feelings
but you don’t 
And I can’t carry your weight
anymore 

I let you be chained to my wings
when I’m meant to soar

It’s too fucking sad to watch you throw away your life
When I know you’re meant for more

I know I’m more 
I know I’m more 
I know I’m more 
I know I’m more 

It’s the hardest thing I’ve had to do
But I’m closing the door
To you 

Please don’t knock
I’m tryin to heal this wound 

I don’t know
if I’ll ever really 
Not love you.

There are people I have left behind
Because it was not their will to shine 
And I choose to dine with the golden hearted
Who do not fear their mighty glow 

So I kindly request that you 
Come alive 
What makes you interesting?
What gets you inspired?
What makes you forget time?
And satiates the hungriest ghost’s desires? 

Self knowledge is power 
It’s the hour of you 
Take a shower 
Wash away foreign energies
That stuck like glue 
Welcome in your pure personal revelation
And enjoy the sensation
of your unique energy 
Elation and synergy 
Born of tuning into your natural frequency 
You’ll find yourself saying, 
“Oh, it’s nice to finally meet me”

 

☀️“When you cultivate who’s around you

You’re cultivating who you are.

You are sculpting yourself out of these people”

Ambivalent friendships are draining.

What you’re doing is who you are.

That’s where your time and energy are going.

“Show me your friends and I’ll show you your future”